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Healing and Transformation
Martin Brofman, Ph.D.
When I had terminal cancer in 1975, I had been told that I had one
or two months to live, and that the end might come very suddenly, any moment,
if I coughed or sneezed. I was faced with a reality in which each day was
possibly my last day, each hour my last hour, and I recognized that for
whatever limited time I had remaining, I wanted to be happy.
Living a compromise made no sense to me. Since each meal was possibly the
last one I would ever have, I wanted to eat whatever I had an appetite for,
whatever my body was asking for. It didn't make sense to me to eat food
I didn't enjoy just because someone else thought it would be healthy for
me. Their loving intentions were recognized, but I knew it was not my way.
My path to health had to include a sense of enjoyment in all that I did,
and I had to be true to myself, to be real. I had to believe in the recovery
Then, it was suggested to me that the cancer was the result of a process
that had been going on in my consciousness, and that I could use my consciousness
to get rid of it. My consciousness had been the effect of programming, as
the results that a computer produces are the effects of the way had been
programmed. I could reprogram my consciousness.
I was presented with the idea that our perceptions create our reality, and
I realized that I had to reprogram my consciousness to create the perception
that I was well. I was not prepared for such an abrupt shift from the perception
of being terminally ill, but I realized that I could much more easily create
the perception that I was getting better and better, until I was indeed
I had had the perception that I was in a state of deterioration, getting
closer and closer to dying, and I knew that if I were to have as the end
result the perception that I was well, I would have to change from getting
worse and worse to getting better and better. I also knew that the turn-around
could happen in any moment. It was a matter of turning a switch in my mind,
and insisting on knowing that it had been turned. I decided that if the
moment of change could be any moment, then let it be now.
I felt a shift in my consciousness, and I knew then that I was in a state
of improvement. I also knew the importance of maintaining the integrity
of that decision, and that moment. I knew that all of my perceptions had
to reinforce the idea that I was now getting better and better. I could
remind myself as I ate whatever food I wanted, that it was exactly what
my body needed to accelerate the healing process.
Physical sensations that felt like electric shocks in my body, which before
had reinforced the idea that the tumor was growing, now had to be perceived
as evidence that the tumor was shrinking. My mind looked for more and more
ways of knowing that the improvement was happening.
I knew I had to stay away from those people who insisted on seeing me as
still terminal, not from any lack of love, but just to maintain my own positive
attitude toward my healing process. I had to be with people who were willing
to encourage me on this seemingly impossible task I had set for myself.
When I was asked how I was doing, I insisted on answering, "Better
and better," and seeing how that was, in fact, true.
I knew that it was vital to maintain the positive programming, and that
putting myself in a relaxed state of mind and talking positively to myself
for fifteen minutes, three times each day, was a part of the programming
process I should in no way interfere with. There were temptations to not
do the relaxations, and then I would remind myself that my life was at stake.
Any temptation, then, was something that stood between me and my life, and
had to be removed, so that I could live.
At first, it was very difficult. I found that the integrity of the moment
of change was easily compromised, by my thoughts or words acknowledging
anything other than the idea that I was improving, and I had to be honest
with myself, and see that, and then know that I had "blown it."
Then, I could tell myself that what had happened was just a practice run,
and that the real moment of change was now.
It got easier and easier. I was able to maintain integrity for just hours
at first, then a day, then two days, and then I was solid. I knew the program
was working. I was able to recognize the doubting voice inside, and know
that it did not represent truth. I was able to identify with the encouraging
voice. It became my guide, leading me back to stable health. I was more
and more able to maintain the single-pointedness of knowing that positive
changes were happening. When I was not feeling a symptom, I told myself
that perhaps now I would never feel that symptom again. If I experienced
the symptom after that, I told myself that the process was just not yet
complete, and that indeed I was feeling the symptom less than I had before.
I had to know that positive changes were happening now, possibly just at
the threshold of notice-ability, so I could eagerly anticipate evidence
to justify my perceptions. Naturally, I was always able to find something,
and so assure myself that it was not something I was just imagining, but
real, and more strength was added to the process.
During my relaxation periods, I imagined seeing the tumor which had been
located in my spinal cord in the neck, and imagined that I was watching
one layer of cancer cells dying, and being released, to be discarded by
my body's natural elimination system. I knew that the change, perhaps not
yet noticeable, was still definite. I knew that each time I released waste
products from my body, the dead cancer cells were being eliminated, and
I reminded myself of that each time. I insisted on knowing that it was true.
I knew that cancer represented something held in and not expressed, and
since the tumor was located by my throat chakra (energy center), I had been
holding back the expression of my Being. Since I wasn't quite sure what
that meant, though, I decided that it was imperative that I express everything.
Every thought, every feeling, whatever was in my consciousness that wanted
to come out, I expressed, knowing that it was vital for my health. Before,
I had had the perception that expressing led to discord, but now I saw that
what I was expressing was appreciated by those around me, that expressing
and communicating led to harmony.
Before, I had had the belief that if I expressed what I really wanted to,
something bad would happen. I had to reprogram that to the belief that if
I expressed what I really wanted to, something wonderful would happen. I
made that decision, and it was so.
I found myself having less and less in common with my old friends. It was
as though we had shared a common vibrational frequency before, say 547 cycles,
whatever that means, and suddenly I found myself at 872 cycles, having few
things to communicate with the 547-cycle people. I had to find new friends
who were also at 872, to have someone to talk with.
I found myself attracted to the 872 crowd, and them to me, as though I had
become selectively magnetic, and certain elements of my reality were being
released which were no longer in accord with the new Being I was becoming.
I knew the process was inevitable, and should not be interfered with. I
developed a sense of compassion and understanding at that time. I knew that
my life depended on releasing all elements of my life not in accord with
my new vibration. The process was simple, though not always easy.
I began each day as a process of self-discovery, with no preconceived notion
of who I was, yet with a willingness to discover the emerging Being, and
a sense of delight with each new discovery.
I imagined the scene that would happen in the doctor's office after my work
on myself was done. I could see him examining me, and finding no tumor,
being puzzled. He might say, "Perhaps we made a mistake." I played
the scene in my mind each day, in my relaxation periods.
I had heard that within the technology of mental programming, if I talked
to myself for fifteen minutes three times each day, within 66 days, I could
get myself to believe anything, and that whatever I believed to be true,
would be true.
About two months after I started working on myself, I went to be examined
by the doctor who had pronounced me terminally ill. On the way to the doctor,
I knew that I had to maintain the perception that everything was all right.
He examined me, and found nothing. He said, "Perhaps we made a mistake."
I laughed all the way home.
I have transformed my way of Being. My lifestyle has changed dramatically.
It no longer makes any sense to work in any nine-to-five job, or to call
any other Being my "superior," since we are all equal Beings with
The work I do now as a healer and teacher is meaningful to me, important
to others as well, and of service to humanity, and I feel a "high"
when I do it. I have a strong sense of doing my life's work. I know that
I am doing what I came to this planet to do. I know it's right. It's not
a feeling that I had had before.
The process of transformation is an integral part of the healing process,
whether the Being is healing his/her vision or releasing some serious illness,
and indeed also when the out-of-balance condition has not reached the physical
level, yet still exists on the mental or emotional level. It is for those
of us who recognize the process to encourage it, and assist it where we
can, so that the planetary transformation now taking place within the individuals
may be hastened, and made as gentle as possible.
Illness or injury shows on a physical level, metaphorically, what has been
happening in the consciousness of the Being experiencing the symptoms. It
is related to that person's way of Being. Once the elements of a person's
Being that relate to their physical out-of-balance condition are identified,
they can be changed, and health and balance on all levels can be restored.
When we see the physical body as a map of the consciousness that wears it,
and always balanced to it, we can also see that a change in one implies
a change in the other. When a healing happens, a change in personality may
be expected to reflect the change in the physical Being, and vice verse.
The "new" individual will have the same Essence of Being, yet
with a different way of interacting with the environment, without what had
been excessive tension for that individual.
It may seem as though the individual had awakened from a very real-seeming
dream, and things will make sense in a different way. A perceptual filter
will have been removed, a filter through which values had been determined,
and without that filter, truer values will become evident. The "new"
Being may even have different tastes in food and/or clothing, and different
personal habits. It will be a welcome transformation.
Approaches to healing which consider the aspect of personality change, transformation,
are keyed to the idea of an inner cause to any outer symptom. Without the
inner changes, the symptoms may be relieved in the physical reality, but
not yet the causes in the inner world, and the symptoms may get re-created
again. The Being then considers that part of their energy system an inherent
weakness, to be continually dealt with, until they can bring about the inner
changes, after which the symptoms no longer manifest. After all, the symptoms
were only necessary to give a message to the "old" Being. The
"new" one, not having the built-in weakness, has no need of the
symptom. As a matter of fact, the formerly weak part may even become the
"new" Being's strongest part. Stories of formerly paralyzed patients
who became Olympic stars are evidence of this.
When transformation is focused on in addition to other parts of the healing
process, another dimension is added, to accelerate the healing. In the energy
system that we each are, the energy is in a constant state of flow. This
flow of energy is regulated by seven energy "pumps," called chakras.
Each chakra represents specific emotions and levels of perception, elements
of the Being's consciousness, and is also associated with specific parts
of the body, specific functions within the body, specific endocrine glands,
and specific nerve groups. Responses to a Being's perceived universe are
reflected in the chakras as well.
The chakras have an optimal state of balance and flow. A healing of the
individual balances the chakras. When this happens, in addition to restoring
inner balance and a different state of consciousness, as well as physical
balance, the rebalancing will also define different responses to the Being's
In other words, with a given state of balance of the chakras, a certain
type of experience will be attracted to the individual, and certain types
of people will be attracted, as well. When the energy changes in the chakras,
as in a healing, the magnetic effect drawing a particular kind of person
or experience is then released, along with the old way of responding.
For example, one Being, having different interactions with his/her mother
may respond by blocking the chakra associated with security or trust. The
effect would be insecurity as a perceptual filter. The individual would
then attract precarious situations to justify the insecurity, as well as
females who would remind that Being of his/her mother. When the chakra is
cleared, the type of female formerly attracted would be attracted instead
to other Beings with the same kind of blocked chakra as that formerly experienced
by the Being who was healed, leaving room for interactions for that Being
with females of a different energy. In addition, interactions with the mother-archetype
will have a different resolution, more satisfying. Situations presented
to the Being will also have more of a sense of solidity.
We can see, then, that not only do the chakras reflect the outer environment,
but in a way they also create it.
With minor adjustments in a Being's energy system, only slight shifts in
consciousness would be apparent. In the case of catastrophic illnesses,
however, the Being was in desperate need of a major adjustment in consciousness,
and then the aspects of transformation would be more profound.
While instantaneous change is always possible and available, most people
do not seem to be prepared for so abrupt a shift in their way of Being.
Gradual change seems more comfortable for the Being involved, as well as
for others in the Being's environment.
With instantaneous change, there is the experience of sudden clarification
of what had been obscure, and a sense something like what might be experienced
by a Being suddenly finding itself in a body, and watching a movie unfolding
around itself, a movie that had just begun. The Being would find itself
as one of the characters, with a sense of seeming to be different than what
the others seemed to see the Being as, and in fact, would be very different.
It would then be important for the Being to maintain his/her new way of
Being, the new sense of clarity or enlightenment (yet possibly combined
with the confusing sense of sudden newness), and establish quickly the way
in which things make sense in the new reality, the new paradigm. The new
Being would have to see its relationship to the old Being's job, surroundings,
home, partner, etc., and evaluate which aspects worked harmoniously, and
which parts would have to change in some way.
In the case of a Being who had had a serious illness, and who recognized
the relationship between lifestyle and the physical symptoms, there would
have to be a willingness to change all aspects of the lifestyle that did
not result in happiness, because it would be clear that it was those aspects
which were directly related to the illness, and that to not bring about
the necessary changes would be to recreate the symptoms of the illness.
When it becomes a matter of life and death, the choice becomes a clear one,
and simple, although not always easy.
To those people close to the Being, it could be a very confusing time, as
well. It could seem as though the person they had known the Being to be,
had suddenly changed in a way, gone crazy. Habitual patterns of behavior
and responding would suddenly no longer be there, and it could be very confusing.
For the Being's health and well-being, however, they would have to be totally
supportive of the new Being, since attempts to re-create the old Being would
be perceived by the Being involved (correctly) as a threat to its health.
There must be a willingness to adapt to the Being's new way of Being. Gradual
change is easier for most people, but it must be emphasized that the magnitude
of the gradual change is no less than that of immediate change. It is just
spread out over a longer period of time. The same issues must be examined.
The same changes must be made. In addition, the Being must maintain a single-mindedness
of purpose, and stay on purpose, with a total willingness to release all
aspects of their life which are stress-related, and all patterns of interacting
which are not success-oriented, until life is again harmonious, and the
body's state of health and well-being indicate that the Being has returned
to balance, and may now identify with the way they are. The transformation
and healing will then be complete.
When an individual who has been out of balance has made the decision to
return to balance, they must make it a high priority project. Nothing else
must be more important. Particularly in the case of a catastrophic illness,
the return to health necessarily becomes more important than family, friends,
or job. When there has been a recognition of a path to health, nothing must
interfere with that path. The development and maintenance of a positive
mental attitude is imperative.
Each of us is a self-organizing autonomous system of consciousness. Each
of us is an energy system. Energy flows through our Being, and is directed
by our consciousness. This energy is in a state of movement, flow, and in
a healthy organism the energy is harmonious, and flows smoothly. When the
flow of this energy is blocked or interrupted, it is experienced by the
organism as an imbalance, and the organism's tendency is to return to balance
and harmony, to return to health. This tendency toward harmony is an aspect
All illness, all injury, is energy blocked or interrupted, or a call for
love. Each of us, including you, the reader, has the ability to sense energy,
detect it, and direct it.
Ultimately, any energy block can be released by your consciousness. It is
not a question of whether it can be done, but rather how it can be done.
Within your Being, within your consciousness, is the ability to love. You
have a potential for infinite love, whether you choose to recognize it or
not, and in fact, it is the very nature of your Being. You have the ability
to love where there was a perception of a lack of love, or a call for love.
You have in your consciousness the potential and ability to heal anything,
on any level, in yourself as well as in any other Being, since it's all
just energy. What remains is for you to realize fully and actualize that
Anything can be healed.
You can heal anything.
See also: Through
the Tunnel and The Body/Mind
Institute of Technologies for Healing